一切归零

今天下午在跑步时却下起雨了，就只好停下脚步，休息了下吃了晚餐就步行回家了。一路上一个人走着走着突然有感而发，感觉一个人无论走多远到最后终须回家。一个经营多久的感情到最后也可以什么都不是。一切到最后终会归零，人死后一切都归土，那又为何如此执着，要争取什么的。记得爸爸曾经说，珍惜眼前，哪怕是曾经拥有。今天感觉明白了什么的，坚持与放弃也没什么大不了，重点过程中有享受过，经历了成长了，也不需执着什么，敢爱敢恨，坚持自己觉得对的，放弃如果觉得该放手了，做回自己！

5th anniversary of working!

Today marked my 5th year of working after graduate. Flash back those days when I just started to work, everything looks so fresh to me, everyday filled with excitement to learn new things, meeting new people!

Today, after 5 years of working, the passionate of work seem no more, started to struggle about my own future. These questions keep popping up in my mind, what did I achieved in these 5 years? What am I gonna be in the next 5 years? The fast turning organization in a company make me feel insecure to stay in a same position. Working hard is no longer a way to secure a job!

Looking around, everyone is looking for alternative path to get rid of the worries of company direction sudden change. Hardworking is no longer a trending now, people are talking about investment in stock market, property, online business and self development! 

After 5 years of blindly work for the company, felt that I had neglected working for myself! Sadly to said that I had neglected the chance to find out my own interest, to build up and develop myself! 

Btw, never too late to start finding myself! It's time to find my own interest which I will never give up and never lost the passionate to fight for it! 

Grow old together, possible?

Things happened to friends around me make me feel insecure, start to realize and to accept that things can actually changed very fast which are out of our control, nothing is granted. 

Not sure it's a good or bad things, seem like I'm just awake from the world of fairy tale, comes to the reality. I used to be trust everyone, things I thought is reasonable to me should be the same to others. But in fact, everything could be happened in a light, complicated and not as simple as I thought. Sounds like a bit disappointed to the reality, but tat's the reality. Now I got to always remind myself to think of the worst case scenario, so that I can be more happy. 

But somehow, when I said I don't care, I can feel my heart does care. Conflict happened inside me, how to get rid of it? I had lost the trust and confident. Question marks are popping out from my mind????Are you still love me as much as before? Will you abundant me one day? Will I able to accept when the day had come? 

I think I'm getting crazy before I got the answer. 

Myself

Make myself fit instead of hoping others to change to fit in me. 

Everyday is a precious day to me, appreciate everything around me, make everyday worth. 

Do not take things for granted, nobody is born to serve me. 

Keep myself improving instead of hoping someone to stop for me.

Time to transform my anger, sadness and complaints to positive energy, time to move on and fighting! 

A little fun at Singapore

Singapore, that most of the people say, a boring country, you would find nothing to do during the weekend other than shopping. 

In fact, shopping is just part of it, you may find a lot of fun in Singapore with spending a little money or even without spending a single dollar! 

How I usually spend my weekend is doing some sport. Walking distance from the house, there are community center that open for public, I can play badminton and jogging with the most convenient ever. Sometimes weekend when I would like to find something special, can go further for hiking at Macritchie reservoir, Labrador park or cycling at east coast. Those places are well maintained with nice scenery. 

This is Henderson Waves near to Labrador Park.

Beach side at East Coast Park

Rent a bicycle with $10 for 3 hours here

Other than sport, national library are everywhere in Singapore and usually near to the shopping mall or even inside the shopping mall. I usually like to do few hours of reading in the library and spend the rest of the day go shopping or movie, really too convenient...hehe

The best spot to view Singapore, on top of Marina Bay Sands. How we get up here? Together with the crazy friend, sneak in together with the guests. It's really worth it to do such a crazy stuff for the great view! 

Some places that need entrance fees, I went to night safari and trick eyes musuem. Those places are worth to go for once in a life time :p. Entrance fees to night safari is $40 while trick eyes musuem is $16.

Swans swimming at Night Safari~

Everyone looks younger when back to zoo 

With the trick of eyes, am I looks amazing?

Working at Singapore ain't that bad as I thought. Started to like this place but I think the main reason of changing my mind would be getting to know a gang of great friends here. Hope for more exposure and knowing more great people here. 

1st 3D puzzle: Igloo In Northern Canada

Wish to travel around the world with my loved one. No matter where are we go, as long as to be with you ❤️

Attitude is powerful

People come and go, now I strongly believe that the only left in our memory is the goodness of your attitude and personality.

The person with red shirt named Gong Jia, a Shanghai man who came to Singapore for a month business trip. A short trip, and now it's time to say good bye to him. 

His good personality is truly attracted me, I'm so respect to his good attitude in learning, his selfless sharing, 100% passionate in work and always keep positive. 

Just a month, a stranger can left such a good impression to me and it give me a lot of thoughts. His positive attitude always make him keep trying and learning, he won't even stop after the solution is found but still working hard until all his doubts are clear! 

Feel so glad to work with such a good personality friend! All the best to him~

2015 resolution!

I know it's a bit late to talk about resolution in the mid of January but it just comes into my mind to start blogging and setup some of the new year resolution for 2015! 

Changing to a new working environment would be a good excuse for me to stop exercise for few months but it's time to picking up back some exercises to keep myself fit! so the 1st new year resolution would be become full marathon runner! It's just nice to talk about this now as I just have my 5km workout today! A good kick start! Yeah! Marathon for me it needs stamina with would train up my own personal attitude to never give up no matter in work or life!

I just went to a talk few days ago, talking about women in tech and how to get success in entrepreneurship. A lot of people do think that it needs a lot of guts to start up a business but in fact the most important is your stamina, never give up when you failed. Keep trying until you see the success. And the success is purely based on personal but not comparing with others. 

2nd resolution was inspired by the talk I attended, start up online business comes into my mind, either doing webpage or apps! Must find an area that I'm interested and work on it! 

3rd n 4th~~~ cannot think of it now.

 

This is my 1st time blogging using blogger apps, much more convenient and user friendly :) this could encourage me to post more! Stay tuned 😙

  

Learn to smile in difficult time

April, a most difficult month that I had gone through. It's a turning point in my life. It's a month that I learnt to make important decision, choosing in between turning left or right, understand that there are things that out of my control and learn to give up even I had been persist for so long. I'd been suffering for the whole month, thought of after this month, things would changed, I'm awaiting for good things coming to me in May. 

But just the begin of the month, I got another bad news that I never thought of. I felt my level of facing bad thing is upgrading, totally understand what is nothing to loss! I'm really got nothing to loss as those bad things are given to me now, nothing good that you still can take from me. At this point of time, I learn to think positively, even a small thing can make me happy. I choose to enjoy the ride. 

不可以再宠坏我的心了

该时候望理智想吧。。。

Stop grieving and and start living.

It's time to let go. No matter how difficult it is, 2 months of time is good enough to make a decision with no regret. Once decision made, don't look back and imagine what could it be if another road is chosen at this time. Learn to have a healthy lifestyle and love myself more.

【分開以後】

Once again challenge my Willpower

Time goes fast. It's already the 2nd time I joined Penang Bridge Marathon.

Last year, I have my best friend running with me, give me the courage to challenge 21km half marathon. 

This year, there are no more worries or scared as I know it'll be not hard to finish but just the matter of finishing time. 

Result for year 2012 "2.52.50.68", finished 2mins earlier compared to last year

This is posted on Allianz facebook cover page. Surprisingly our picture is being selected out of thousands of pictures!

Front from left: Jijuan, Sotong & Hai
and mei siem & me at the back :)

Never forget to take picture with 2 pretties from TITAN. 

Still remember last year my knee joint was hurt, walking up and down stairs was killing me for weeks! Seem I'm getting stronger this year, still able to walk around take picture after marathon, fully recover from muscle pain after 2-3 days. 

Running marathon is just like a short term achievement in our life, 21km is the target, target is in the front, either give up or continue, finish it fast or slow. We decide it for our own. 

I will continue to run, run for my life...

知足、知不足、不知足

知足、知不足、不知足，这是一个人应有的态度，应有的觉悟，应有的境界。

知足，就是要知足常乐。

知足能使人安详、平静、达观、洒脱、超然；

知足者，贵在知不可行而不行。

而知不足，就是要知道自己的不足之处。

不知足者，智在知可行而必行。

不知足能使人渴望、激情、拼搏、奋进、登攀。

如果知不可行而强行，必无功而返；如果知可行而不行，则会错失良机。
在现实生活中，一个人能够知足地对待名利，又能不知足地对待事业，
知足就会成为不知足的辅助和铺垫，不知足就成了知足的凝聚，这是人生境界升华。

知足、知不足、不知足，说起来容易，做起来却很难，需要我们用心去体会，用智慧去把握，用行动去实践。一个人如果能够设身处地地做到知足、知不足、不知足，人生则户更精彩，更美丽，事业则会更顺利，更辉煌。

Please stop it from me!

I'm suffering! I want to get out from this quickly! Why there are always bonding between human? Why human will influencing each others? Can I be more independent? I responsible for my own happiness, why do I need to wait for you?

1st time ever cycle from Kulim to Penang!

Intel Campus2Campus Cyclothon 2012

After the Penang Bridge Marathon 2011, this is the 2nd time I challenge the limit of myself. It's really looks cool with full set of cycling attire, our bike, jersey, shorts and helmet, now everyone looks like professional cyclist. 500 of intellier in blue jersey, it just like cycle in a blue ocean. 

Really a good experience, but acting cool need to be paid off, my butt is very pain after few hours of cycle.

Btw, once in a life time, worth it as well, when look at the nice pictures.... 

@ Intel Kulim. Photo with our bikes. 

Enjoying with my bike..

Acting chok :)

@Kulim. On my way to the 1st check point ( around 25km from Intel Kulim)

Reach ferry, at this time my butt is actually freaking pain @.@

With Robin Martin, VP of Intel. 

Cheers...reached Explanade, Penang.

Successfully reach Shinca, Intel Penang 

After quick some times of rest, continue with our craziness...jump jump!

@ Happy Ending...

Brain drain

Oh my god! i can't think of anything but everything is not done yet! how???? please..give me a rest!

dear friends,
Don't worry, i just wanna write it out to express my feeling in an empty office now!

特别的一天

A special day...smile from my heart ^.^

3/13/2012  

Sleep for the whole day!

wow..it's so cool can be sleep for the whole day!

Feel so great and satisfy!

A good rest for today, a kick new start for tomorrow.

Good Night ^.^

sweet dream to all...

让你爱得自在的人。。。

这一生，你可能会遇到许多「喜欢你的人」，
但是你可能永远都遇不到一个「你真正爱的人」..

所以，一但遇到了，一定要好好的把握。
很多事情，错过了就没有了，错过了就是会变的，缘份也是..

当你可以在自己喜欢的人面前，做你自己，
当你的缺点在对方的眼中看起来是那么的可爱，
当你们两人可以很自然的，天南地北的聊、可以开怀尽情的大笑，
当你们可以彼此告知对方的缺点，而彼此也能不生气的接受，
并愿意改进的话，那么你们就是最适合的了..